Hello 2010 Good bye 2009

What a year, so much went on, it has been truly a long year, and I am very happy there is only 12 hours left. The beginning of the year was pretty uneventful. Winter left, spring came, then summer. Summer was fun at first, had a great time with June Pride events, the parade and all. July was a great month especially the week I was able to spend with my family in Atlanta. August came and my world stopped for 3 months. I learned to live alone again, to cook and to take care of the babies. It was hard. Really hard, but I know I have grown as a person and learned to love my man more and more. Days turned to weeks, to months, to add up to 98 days. There were some good points in the 3 months. I went to 2 weddings, both were super fun, and I was very appreciative to be able to present at both. Ocotober cane and passed, a long rainy month. November came around and a homecoming and then Thanksgiving. This year I was very very blessed and so happy. December came, my birthday, 34 now no biggie. Christmas has come and gone, and this year was not as big as in the past and actually seemed rushed. I was very happy to have my family there. We did say goodbye to 3 of our family dogs, which are missed but I know in a better place. I am looking forward to new adventures, happiness and going somewhere on vacation. Have a great New Year!!

Christmas Eve

Hello, sorry I have not been back in awhile. Well since I last wrote my man has come home. He actually was home the Saturday before Thanksgiving, so I was super excited!! We had a great holiday dinner with the family, went home and watched UT beat Tx A&M. Then the following weekend win the Big 12, barely..and now onto the National Championship!!

As this holiday season has come upon me, I realized how fast it all goes by, July 4th was just a flash back, then the longest 3 months of my life, and now just 5 weeks later we are turning to a new year. I turned 34 this week. I remember when that seemed old! Now I feel good, health is good, have a roof over my head, food on the table and get to wake up each day to the person I love very much, sure it could be better, but it could be so much worse.

I look forward to a much better year, more properous and just a year of renewal and change. I have not set an resolutions, but I do cherish the time I have had over the last 5 weeks. We have grown closer and know how much we mean to each other. I might not be able to buy all the gifts I want, but really this year all I wanted is what I have. I am looking forward to have my family over our house tomorrow to celebrate Christmas together.

One goal I do have for next year is to write more. Merry Christmas!!

And the countdown continues...

Well as stated above - it goes on. No final date yet, but hopefully will know soon. It has been over 60 days. Wow how time goes by, but somedays it seems like minutes last hours. Summer has left and fall is coming in....that is fall in the ATX. Today was a good UT Longhorns won a hard game - 16-13 playing OU (yes you suck)! Afterwards went out for a visit, and now home watching tv. I wish he was right next to me and the cool weather makes me sad cause all I can snuggle with is the babies. Which I do love...but they aren't the same as my man.
But on a happier note, I have become more and more capable of living on my own for the temporary. I made Pea Soup last week, came out pretty good, and before that I made chili. Both were ok, but not the same as his. But the kitchen is not that room I never want to step inside anymore. I have learned how to endure it, and learn to create things, actually fun!!
Well that is all for tonight...Keeping the positive and optimistic views open till the next date, which is Tues. Laters!!

Countdowns

Remember when we were kids and we used to countdown for things we were excited for...christmas, birthdays, yep even school. As we get older countdowns turn into - how many days till rent is due, till the cable is due, where are the good countdowns?? Vacations yeah we get to go here and there. Well I have my own countdown and I don't know a final number yet, but it is hard. We are only miles apart, but it seems like forever away. We get to see each other twice a week but can't touch, smell, and we get to talk each day. It is like have a long distane relationship without the long distance. It is hard, but after 3.5 years we are strong and able to get through this It is a test, on both of us. So the count is almost 60, and still not sure how much more after this but I take, we take it day by day. One thing I have learned is the art of writing letters. I hate that this had to come about to communicate better, but reading someone's thoughts and feelings, and to be able to respond with your thoughts and feelings. All I can ask is keep us in your thoughts.

It has been a long time

Well, where do I start. Summer is over, we had 68 days of 100+, missed the record here in ATX by one day. Trust me we are not complaining!! I know my sister up in NJ was jealous of the rain they had all summer. My sisters and I went to Atlanta for my dad's 60th Birthday - had a great time. August rolled around, was having a great summer, and then on th 16th my life changed. Not going into details, but my other half is on a travis county sponsored vacation...if you don't know what that means, email me. I know most of you do. Again, I am not going into details, but it has been a very lonely time, and I have had to learn to do alot on my own. For the last 3.5 years I have been taken care of, didn't have to cook much, well never really, didn't have to do much housework, was a pampered spouse. I have learned how to do laundry again, clean the house, and yes cook...oy vey. I am so thankful for my man who has written some of his recipes down and sent them to me. Trust this is very rare, so many people have asked for them and he never written them down. Now I have tried to cook and successful yes, taste the same, oh no...but at least I am not eating fast food all the time.

When I went to Atlanta it was the 1st time we were apart - and that was 5 days, it is now 32 days not seeing each other on a daily basis. We get to talk each day even just for a minute, and we write letters back and forth. Yes the art of letter writing...I haven't written a letter in over 15 years. It is nice to be able to write your thoughts and feelings and send them to someone who will appreciate them. You get to know someone on a level that is different than a twitter post, a facebook update, or a text, and yes even email. Many times we just write those in a quick moment. When we write a letter we have time to put our thoughts down. Anyway, I have a lot to write but it is getting late. Below our pictures of my dinners.

I do know things will get better, and just taking it a moment at a time. My next blog update will be focused on more positive happy things, but this is a great way and very therapeutic for me.

Just because

Hello, it has been awhile, and I have been just hanging around the house today relaxing, and it is too hot to got out..105 today in Austin, TX. Anyway, I was able to catch up on some DVR, new Real World, Cancun...how crazy would that be..and then the Real Housewives of NJ Reunion...crazy ladies. I wished I saw the whole season, I just saw the last few episodes. I don't remember housewives being like that in NJ. Maybe it has changed?

I was watching Grease last weekend, and thought how would life be if we all broke into song. Or how would our lives be in it was like a movie. Would we get those moments when the world around you goes fuzzy and just you and our partner are the only onese there even though the room is filled with people. Has that happened to you? If not I hope you will get to experience that. I love when Mikel and I are out and about and so much is going on but it is just him and I who matter to each other. After 3.5 years we still get those special feelings, yeah we drive each other crazy at times, but we still are very much in love. I love how songs, movies, tv shows, books, can bring make memories and emotions and feelings from the past. Our song is Rascal Flatts, God Bless the Broken Road, and every time I see that I smile.

I realized in the last 2 days how 1 person can impact the world, Michael Jackson that is. I love his music, and depsite what his personal affairs were, he was a great artist and blessed the world with great songs. I have memories of times with his music, Thriller, watching it the 1st time roller skating, and how my sister still gets scared when she hears that. We are the World, I remember hearing it in the car with my family. The world will miss his artistry and his music will live on for others to hear in the future.

Anyway, just wanted to place some random thoughts. Have a great day and I plan blog more and let you into my life more.